its over.

if i had the guts i would tell you and move on.

follow up on this post I did, i told you everything you know my secret now, I guess i thought once you knew my wound you would fix it, save me , be my knight in shining armour, but then I realized...you cant help me, you cant save me. Only I can do that.

i miss you...

i just realized it, and i want to tell you...

but i'm afraid you don't want to hear it.

that just kills me.

If I wasn’t afraid I would throw my life away, just for the chance that I might get to spend it with you.

And yet, I know that you deserve better than me, and I deserve what I have done to myself.

if i weren't terrified of losing all the memories i've carried with me for so long...

i would call you up tomorrow, just to find out what would happen between us now, after all these years have passed with us apart.